It seems for me when I’m down on my luck I have no problem hearing God or knowing what I am supposed to be doing. When I have my struggles I know the issues that put me in the situation and I know how to ratify the situation. But when everything is going well I have trouble hearing God. I have trouble seeing my purpose in life. Maybe it’s because I just turned 25. Maybe I’m having a quarter life crisis. That could be why I’m looking around a life and wondering about the things that matter. I can say that I trust God and I’ve always believed in destiny. Yet, in the day to day I look around and wonder if there is more. Is there more to this life than what I am doing. I use to think I would get my masters and study communication patterns and health outcomes. I’ve always leaned more toward the nurture side of the debate. I believe if you treat a child like they are disabled, a criminal, or a failure that is the end product you will turn out with. I chose to stop my education and join the real world. I have a nice job, a good home, a great husbandand an amazing dog. I look at my life and know that I am lucky. I feel as though God has blessed me yet, there is still a longing. I feel like I want my life to matter. I want to do what I was put here to do. I want to help people and always thought I would change the world if even only in a very small way. I look the stuff in my apartment and know that it’s just stuff. I wonder when I get up and go to work if any of it matters. I guess in my “semi-old-age” I’m just looking for a purpose. Before figuring out a purpose was easy. I would just open my eyes, step up and do what I was supposed to. Know I feel as though I don’t hear God in quite the same way. Maybe my purpose is simply to get up, and do everything I’m supposed to do. Be a good employee, wife, and care taker for my dog. Yet, as the days pass I wonder if there is more to life. I wish someone would just call me and tell me what I’m supposed to be when I grow up because I am clueless. If this is all there is I’m okay with it because I am happy in my situation. But if there is something more that I am missing I pray God would show me a sign.